Confident

I have been challenged by a lack of confidence my entire life.  It is crippling at times.  I had hoped getting older would bring on new confidence as many women have claimed they received as they turned 40 or 50.  Wonderful for them.  Mine comes and goes.  As a Christian, I'd like to stand on the faith that Jesus stood.  Now I enter into a another world I watched my parents go through with little understanding what it was like for them.  I am only 57 and was blessed with excellent health.  I still have excellent health but am beginning to realize the onset of the aging body thing.  And yes, it frightens me.  I just discovered visual journaling and now face challenges with my eyesight.  Nothing debilitating but enough to remind me of how very fragile we human creatures are.  We are wonderfully made, no question, but we are mortal and living in a decaying body until we are set free from those bodies.  So, what confidence I muster up comes from my heavenly father.  His still small voice always says to me "lift up your head" as if to remind me who I am in Christ.  That love alone should always be my foundation.