Repeating Shapes

I haven't been on this blog in sometime because I have been so busy participating in The Documented Life Project, a group on line documenting pages of their life in a planner/art journal.  Huge fun and amazing talent in the group.  I keep learning and applying.  Right now I am copying a lot of folks in order to find my own art and techniques.  It is hard as I find most days I struggle with initiating creativity.  Why?  This remains a mystery to me.  I feel like there is a wall of some sort.  Perfectionism, fear of failure....or just not creative.  I do not want to believe the later.